the amount of letters i have wrote to you in my head must have taken years of my life.

yet, why can i never find the courage to send them?

...i make amigurumi! *shot dead*

works-in-progress...



apparently i'm off jeans-shopping to ASDA soon. men!

my blood pressure is finally down to normal figures, hurrah! i only found out today how scarily high it was a fortnight ago. i dread to think what would have eventually happened should i have left it longer before getting medication. i feel so much better now, physically and mentally. it's easier to stay calmer now i don't have blood pumping through my veins at a million miles per hour, hehe~

no real updates in regard to work and "work". i had an interview at a bakery but didn't get that (bastards), and i've almost completely burnt myself out on amigurumi too bother much right now. crocheting has currently been put aside to make room for la tale times (^=^)'

kasabian's latest album, 'west ryder pauper lunatic asylum', got leaked a few days ago on the internet. yesyes of course i greedily snapped it up at once (even after promising myself i'd just save myself and pre-order it -- BUT I AM TOO POOR). i like what i have heard so far (noel fielding even stars in one of the videos, like whoa!), and fully appreciate fanning over a band that have since released 3 spiffing marvelous albums to date ♥
/fangirl

GET LOOSE, GET LOOSE.

i can't stop listening to Utada's 'This is the One' album. i believed i was destined to hate it as even she admits it was made for the sole intention of breaking into american mainstream. HOWEVER the songs are all incredibly catchy and the lyrics speak to me (so much so that a couple have brought out a tear or two). so if anyone reading this ever gets the chance to listen then please do - but listen through 2 or 3 times as it took me that long to appreciate it (^‿^)'

anyway, i had a blood test yesterday at the doctors and omg the nurse has butchered my arm! there's a gigantic bruise that's all purple and blue around the needle mark, along with a hard lump underneath. and people wonder why i hate needles?!

lately i have been tempted to start posting in a music comm again, just for something to do. plus i've found some great sources for new and obscure japanese music so whoop! (º∇º)/) it would be nice to start sharing again too~

no work updates, but i have been putting pencil to paper lately, so maybe there will be picture posts soon.

♥

i'm so happy, i finally found the very first Hamasaki Ayumi song i ever heard, God knows how many years ago. turns out it was so hard to find as it came out before she "got big". brings back memories♥. all i need now is music by Tiffany Lee (canto-pop singer) and i'll be back at the roots of my east-asian fad.

after months and months of putting it off i finally went to the doctors today for medicine i need. i almost feel 100% again just knowing that magic pill is doing wondrous things to my b.p. XD; *is lame*

haven't done any crocheting at all for almost a week now. well, actually, i lie -- i started on an entirely new project at the weekend, but the yarn messed up before i'd completed the head. very annoying as i spent a whole hour just embroidering the face (which ended up promptly flying across the room). oh well, yay for laziness??

been applying for jobs like crazy as of late. i'm so desperate to be working a proper job again so i can save up for a moving fund. and buy fun stuff without feeling constantly poor and guilty!

～ off to play some nostale (^3^)/) x

projects in progress:

1. crochet "cut away" cardigan


2. army of "mini-buns"


3. learning to knit

projects waiting to be taken up:

1. ghost kitty ami (& eventually other ghostly critters)


2. learning how to sew plush

actually, i'm pretty stuck for inspiration at the moment. i can't wait to get myself out there on etsy for the sole possibility of CUSTOM ORDERS :O i know i know, getting ahead of myself, but a girl can dream.

also -- this song is awesome cuteness ♥♥♥

i am so pumped for two album releases in the next few weeks - may 19th for tori amos, june 8th for kasabian. i haven't listened to any singles from either yet, i'm waiting for the whole package and hoping for the best from both. neither have let me down yet! (well, tori's american doll posse was a bit of a let-down but...we'll skip over that.)

i've been busy lately, making an army of "mini-buns" ^-^ pics to come when i have enough done to warrant a crazy picture post. today though i decided a change of pace was in order and have continued work on my net stitch cardigan (this one). it's really enjoyable to work on a more open project after so many teeny parts & hours of sewing/swearing/redoing. maybe one of these days i'll get around to practicing my knitting again - i have the top quality yarn for it now - sirdar, i'll have you know! it was only £1, i couldn't resist. i'm such a sucker for discount prettiness.

i really need to stop getting so side-tracked from my creative projects. i recently purchased a cute kitty notebook to use as an "art journal", and so far have accomplished outlining the front page text, hmmmm... i'm so lazy ¬¬;

oh, talking about creativity, i'm making a crafty blog on wordpress dedicated to all of that lark, so eventually you won't get me rambling about it all on here. hehe :3 this'll go back to being about my life outside of crochet (yes, it really does exist!).

hmm, what else? i'm still unemployed, lacking money, continuously ill with something, etc. YAY LIFE! :D;;;

how awfully frightening to be in the second decade of my life and so far accomplished very little. what has happened? fourteen years of education, becoming a sister twice, first love...um...what after that? very little really. during the next few years i intend to attain clear direction in my life, at least where the career section is concerned. there's not enough life to do everything i want to do, and narrowing options down is going to be an arduous task to be sure, but i'm giving myself till 25 to at least be on my way to wherever it is i eventually want to be.

actually, i don't think i'm giving myself enough credit. in the last 10 years i've learnt the hardships of life and love, and for some experiences i still have the scars to prove it. and where am i now? i finally have the whole family i dreamt of having -- mum, dad, two siblings. i also have found my better half and think the world of him. if i can get my working life kick-started some point soon then i'll almost have it made :)

oh, how could i forget that i also found God? sorry God, you know you're still my #1 homie :3

so overall -- first scary birthday done with. i am 20 years old. and y'know...life ain't actually that bad.

...before my other half comes home & finds i haven't been working on my current project X3

i'm really looking forward to next wednesday -- telfooooooord tiemz! my dad's gonna drive all the way up here to pick me up then drive all the way back again. he's so daft ♥ i'm REALLY hoping to catch up with certain friends this time that i didn't get to see last time. so that's 3 people + both halves of my family to see within only a week. hmmmm...!! hehe, it's not that bad really cos they all live pretty close to my mum's. though i won't be staying with her the whole week i don't think. hmmmm indeed.

anyway, latest finished work:



and no it's not my hand, hahaha. my fingers are well thin :( but anyway this little guy's up on ebay and already has a bid on him. woopwoop! still need to get 3 or 4 commissions done before the 29th. then there's 2 other birthdays coming up in may i want to make things for. i need to start scheduling my life i think, hehehe.

alongside all that i've started a new project that i plan on putting a lot of work into. i really, really want to crochet scenes of my interpretations of the Beatles song 'Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds'. whenever i hear the lyrics all these wonderful scenes are conjured up in my mind, and i'd love to put life into them. i've begun making concepts of certain objects i want in the scene, the current project being a tangerine tree. it even has its own little base ;) will post pics laters. am off now to finish it before i get mocked by a certain someone, ehehehe.

YAY RANDOM CUTENESS. fudge♥

i am suddenly horrified by the amount of projects i need to start/finish before my visit to telford on the 29th. let's see...

teddy bear #1 (commission)

teddy bear #2 (commission)

crocheted chocolate syrup sponge cake (for my nan)

belated easter bunny (for my brother)

and that's all while i'm going through a bunny pattern obsession too. i'm perfecting a pattern that i can use over and over as a base, and then work various themes onto it. i've only got the feet left to craft, so my little zombie bun will be ready for being sewn together soon. woop! i'm so pleased with how it's turning out, the temptation for keeping it for myself will be great.

i believe i'm soon going to have to invest in a new way of storing my yarns, as i have waaaay too many. i've only been crocheting for almost 2 months now but i can't help picking up a new ball or two every time i go into the local craft store. plus i've had donations from family members and stocked up on cheap oddments from eBay so...yeah. here's how's my vice is doing right now --> oh noes~! and team that up with the decent quantity of felt, safety eyes and embroidery threads in my drawer...i think i may need some help of the mental kind before too long :'D oh dear.

i've started considering playing guild wars again fo' realz (as if i didn't waste enough of my life on it before!). although i would be sad if i can't get into the guild i was in before, hmm...stalking time! hehe, but anyway a complete series will cost me just £25 on amazon, which is pretty spiggin' awesome. here's to hoping i get plenty of birthday money, hehehee.

anyway, back to the hook!

i don't quite know why, but i've had this constant ball of rage in the pit of my stomach for a few weeks now. it's like constant PMT even though i'm past that now. i guess i just need to get out more. or something :/

my little hitcher doll i posted last time for for £13 :3 very pleased about that. 50% is going to the RSPCA and i'm now working on a naboo! although very slowly i might add, as these little toys are stressing me now (already!) -- they're just too fiddly! also, finished a toast bag today. a HAPPY toast bag. pictures next time!

happy easter ♥

it's the hitcher. with his "solo polo vision" :3

he's up on eBay, as a way to generate some funds as well as raise a bit of money for charity.

i've been trying to make unemployment feel a bit less lonely lately - i've started volunteering at the local british heart foundation shop. it's where i worked before i landed my café job in telford so i already know the ropes, which i think made the manager pretty happy haha. she even asked me to teach someone how to rotate stock...on my first day! yay for responsibilities♥ :3

i've been making a few things crochet-wise, such as a hat, little lion for mother's day, but...i feel a real lack of inspiration already. i'm thinking about learning to knit now though, as there's so many nice clothing patterns that you just couldn't achieve with crochet. saying that though, i am making myself a net-stitch spring/summer cardigan in bright pink :P i know pink's never really been a favourite colour of mine but i actually like this one, so i'm hoping it turns out well.

i finished the maison ikkoku manga series yesterday that i've been borrowing from the library. it's a pretty good series for shoujo manga (outside of yuu watase), and i'm actually tempted to watch the anime at some point. now i'm onto imadoki!, of which i purchased the first 2 volumes for cheap off eBay. i really want to buy the fushigi yugi set again (i sold it for moving funds) but it's going to end up too expensive, so it's on the "when i get a job" list, hehe.

anyway, i'm off to grab a cup of tea and a couple of slices of toast.

happy birthday itazurako ♥♥♥

so i've finally found the perfect way to waste time AND satisfy my creative urges -- amigurumi! well, crocheting in general is awesome too, but seeing itty bitty arms, legs and heads come together is like playing God. i shall have an army! >:D

anyway, here is my first attempt, following a pattern by the wonderful Ana Paula Rimoli...

▪ ele one
▪ ele two

the cup in the 2nd picture is so you get a rough idea of the size. we're too poor to own a ruler (more like me forgetting to pick one up every time we go out, but that's not so much interesting as adding to my constant memory failure) so i can't give a proper measurement.

i'm making a little lion now, for my mum as a mother's day present. i'm just waiting for my poly pellets to come before i finish him off or he'll be like my ele and keep smacking his head on the floor every time he's propped up unaided :(

jobcentre day tomorrow, to confirm my ID and get on the dole again. AGAIN. at 19. i am sad :( but it has been worth it. joey > smelly kitchen work anyday XP

anyway, with my first dole pay i'm aiming to go back to good old shropshire for a few days. need to go to my old college and ask for a uni reference too. i know i've missed the january deadline, but it couldn't be helped. i have until march now, though i do aim to get it all sent off as soon as i get that bloody ref. anyway, i can't wait to see family & friends again! i doubt i'll have enough money to go get wasted and make a fool out of myself for facebook lulz, but it'll still be good times regardless.

so now i've updated it's SPYRO TIEMZ. need to get it finished before my brain melts from the cheapness of kids games today, hurhur. laters ♥

so i decided to come back, out of sheer boredom! let's see how long this lasts.
anyway, no real-life update yet because i'm not quite THAT bored...yet. let's just say it's been good and bad, but mostly good :D

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